Between the hormones brought on by the pregnancy and the hormones from weaning, I am not doing so well. I can't really remember a time when I was more depressed than I have been recently (and that is saying a lot since I've been hospitalized twice for depression). As is my pattern, I retreat from the Internet as I try to deal with the crazy.
There are a number of entries I've started and then deleted because I knew they would be of value to no one, including myself. I'm struggling with the most basic aspects of life (getting my ass into the shower on a regular basis, feeding myself and my child, not allowing my home to become the city dump) and I'm feeling pretty down about the whole thing.
However, I'm going to San Diego on Thursday for Memo's baby shower. I'm hoping it will go okay. I know I'll have a nice time at the baby shower. But getting there means a three-hour nonstop flight with a 16 month-old child who no longer thinks sitting in Mommy's lap is such a great gig. I know that the three hours will really be nothing in the long run, but I also know that they will drag on forever while they are happening. For me and everyone else on the plane. I fear that I'll simply refuse to get back on the plane Monday to come home.
I'll be back tomorrow to discuss books one is meant to read in high school and probably shouldn't read while parenting or pregnant.
I'm sure you have thought of this, but what about talking to your ob. I know some people who got PPD while pregnant and there are some drugs you can take.
Good luck!
Posted by: jodi at July 9, 2007 04:04 PM
feeling a bit helpless here, as there isn't anything i can really do to help you right now, but i'm sending you big virtual hugs through the interwebs. i hope the trip is refreshing for you in some way.
Posted by: Lara at July 9, 2007 06:00 PM
Oh hugs to you! I wish I could pass on some words of wisdom to you. I hope you find some relief on your trip. I shall send "be good for Mommy" vibes straight to your Alliclaus.
Keep in touch as much as you can, I have missed stalking you ;-)
Posted by: Jacquie at July 9, 2007 08:41 PM
HUGS good luck this weekend!
Posted by: chelle at July 9, 2007 09:07 PM
Good luck with the flights - I hope the trip helps lift your mood. My #1 secret to traveling with toddlers (not that you asked) is keep the food coming. Snacks and lots of 'em! Also the skymall catalog can be surprisingly entertaining, esp. if Alliclaus likes pictures of cats and dogs.
Posted by: mayberry at July 9, 2007 10:22 PM
Hang in there! Memo's shower will be a blast! When you guys come in at the end of July....I would love for Alliclaus to spend the day with Donovan and I so you can have some adult time to do whatever would make you happy!
Posted by: Jenny at July 10, 2007 03:27 PM
We just flew with our kids on a 2 and a half hour flight to Florida...best advice?? Bring food. Lots of snacks...our Bella was fine as long as she had a vanilla wafer in each hand. I do hope that you enjoy your time in Cali and can get some much needed vacation time...
Posted by: Heather at July 11, 2007 09:01 AM
I don't have any useful advice for you. I'm sorry you're having a hard time though, and I hope it gets better soon.
Good luck with the flying.
Posted by: bad penguin at July 12, 2007 07:38 AM
We just got back from a flight from Switzerland. That was 21 hours of traveling from the time we left our hotel to our front door. There were lots of tears and toddler moments, but it went fine. Your little Alliclaus will be an angel. :)
If you have a chance when you are in San Diego (if not this time, perhaps another), it would be awesome to meet you in person.
Hang in there. I hope you get to feeling better soon. I can totally relate. Many hugs to you!
Posted by: Laura Lohr at July 16, 2007 12:46 AM
I've been there (the depression thing, not because of hormones though) and I'm sorry you're going through it. I hope it passes soon, and the meantime take it easy on yourself and just do what you need to get by. We always miss you when you take a blog break, but I'm sure we all understand.
Posted by: Jessie at July 9, 2007 02:54 PM