So, I've started eating healthier. Which is not hard, seeing as I pretty much ate garbage before. But when you've been eating junk for years, real food? It doesn't taste right. And it sure is a lot of work.
I'm on a very specific eating plan, but I'm not calling it a diet. I prefer to think of it as an introduction to food. My body has completely forgotten the difference between not full and starving to death. I'm now trying to beat it back into submission.
I've said before that I have a slow metabolism. But I started to journal what I was eating. Holy crap! With the number of calories I was consuming, it's really remarkable I wasn't the size of a house. (Maybe a studio, but definitely not a house!)
The problem is that although I am eating six times a day, I honestly feel like I am starving between those meals. I know that this is ridiculous, because I'm still consuming more than 2000 calories a day. (At my weight, if I cut down to less than that right away, I would most likely quit. Also, kill someone.)
For a long time, I was trying to eat healthier so that I could be thin. Everytime I did that, I failed miserably. But I really want to set a good example for Alliclaus. I went to the dentist (of whom I am very scared), I'm making Andiclaus go get a physical, I'm turning off the TV and reading a book. This is just one more area where I want Alliclaus to see a healthy example.
I keep looking at her picture on my desk and reminding myself that she is more precious to me than those damn chocolate donuts in the vending machine down the hall.
But I'm so hungry!
It's hard isn't it? I'm on a healthy eating plan right now too, and am feeling starving right now, even though I had a big healthy breakfast this morning. Yesterday I had a bowl of cereal for breakfast and was full until after my normal lunch time. It just doesn't make sense, does it? Good luck with your new healthy lifestyle. It is hard, for sure, but so worth it!
Posted by: Jessie at August 22, 2006 09:23 AM
Good for You guys! As the current president of Go to the Doctor Every year club I think this is all a fantastic idea!
Posted by: Sarah at August 22, 2006 01:51 PM
Delayed Genious moment...
Maybe our joint blog should be about the trials and tribulations of trying to be more healthy. We could like dedicate it to my mom and stuff but we dont have to be all creepy like make her a blogger on it or anything! It might be fun!
Posted by: Sarah at August 22, 2006 01:53 PM
Good luck! Eating healthy is really hard with a little one. Now that Donovan is eating grown up food (well I guess he has been for some time now) I find myself making him a dinner that is healthy and covers all the food groups and all that shit, that I forget about myself and Don. We end up eating whatever we can find...a whole lot of cereal. It is really fun to eat dinner as a family so I have made it my priority to make dinner every night. I set my expectations very high, so my idea of homemade dinner is a 3 course meal, and I really need to get away from that, because that always falls through because it is so much frigging work. Oh, so I have rambled on again for way too long.
Seriously, good luck! Small steps is key, if you dive in drastically you will end up quiting...at least that is my opinion!
Posted by: Jenny at August 22, 2006 03:13 PM
Holy cow are you kidding me? If they would glaze my children, I'd eat them in a heart beat. I love love love me some donuts...not the kind in the machine though, I want the real krisyp kreme deal...but glazed children sounds pretty appealing. Good for you, I'm in the boat with you, if I cut below 2000 right at one time, I would be ready to flip out on someone. I cut my soda consumption in half (8 down to 4) and added water and I've lost some weight. I just can't get down off those last 4 soda's...ugh! But, glazed children...yummy!
Posted by: Jerri Ann at August 22, 2006 07:50 PM
I will be thinking lots of positive thoughts for your 'introduction to food' plan. You are right--it is really hard to reduce the calories and eat healthier, but I admire your determination and even if you mess up sometimes, the overall effort is better than nothing!
Posted by: Jennifer at August 22, 2006 07:54 PM
It does take awhile for your body to get used to it. I LOVE food that's horrible for me. Love it Love it Love it! If I start eating better for awhile though I actually feel sick when I eat crap again. (Which I guess is a good thing, but it doesn't really stop me.) Just keep looking at your picture of AAA and remembering that you don't want her to get into bad habits and end up on the Maury show as one of the 100 pound 2 year olds. Good luck!!!
Posted by: Jeanette at August 23, 2006 07:36 AM
I just had another thought. You really can't every do anything right as a parent (not you, but one). Not that long ago you were concerned that AAA wasn't eating enough, now you're having to worry about setting healthy eating examples. I can't wait until I have kids. I'll definitely be shipping them off to Jenny and Sarah to make the decisions.
Posted by: Jeanette at August 23, 2006 07:38 AM
Aliclaus is such a beautiful baby. I love all that dark hair... and is that a dimple I see?
Posted by: Liz at August 23, 2006 01:38 PM
You could try talking to a nutritionist. They could help you put together a mix of food that will help you feel more full. Before my diabetes was diagnosed, I was amost always hungry, and it turned out that I was eating a lot of the wrong foods for my metabolism (an in my case, blood sugar problems), even when I thought I was being healthy.
You also have to give it time. Your body needs a few weeks to get used to your new eating patterns.
Good luck with the changes you are making!
Posted by: bad penguin at August 22, 2006 09:04 AM