I'm a graduate school dropout.
This is the first time that I've written something here about anything important before telling my IRL friends about it.
I've said before that I was having an identity crisis, and I just realized that I was really unhappy with the degree program I was in. I hope I'll go back to school once we move away from Kansas City, but I just couldn't do it anymore now.
Almost immediately, I began to feel the lack of direction kick in, but I directed myself to the nail shop and a pedicure cured that situation.
I'm going to use my free time to get the apartment ready for the many visitors we will have coming shortly (including the very small one), catch up on some leisure reading I've been meaning to do, and end world hunger. Or I might just turn napping into a full-time job.
Oh! In other news, I am meeting Andi Pandi tomorrow for cheesecake and coffee. I've never met anyone from the Internet before. I kind of assume that you are all just make-believe people provided for my entertainment. I guess we shall see tomorrow.
I agree, if you were really unhappy, then I say hurray! I hope you enjoy the preparation for all the visitors coming your way, and that you are able to relax before the big changes take place. Good luck at the meetup!
Posted by: halloweenlover at March 2, 2006 02:35 PM
I wish you the best of luck and support as you decide what direction to take next. Does this mean you're coming back to CA?
Posted by: RikkiSuzanne at March 2, 2006 05:49 PM
Change is good. Here's wishing you happiness.
I can't wait to hear how meeting someone from the Internet goes. How exciting!!
Posted by: Isabel at March 3, 2006 10:12 AM
Hi-
I came here via "Amalah" and I am really enjoying your blog...
I also am a grad school dropout... I was pregnant with my first child (10 years ago) as I kept falling asleep in class and the whole drool and snoring thing was getting a bit embarrassing.
In any case, I never went back because I don't have any brain cells left... they were all expelled into the world with the birth of my first and the coming home of my last...
Am going to now go lurk around your archieves... because I am lurk-y like that.
Kristin
Posted by: Kristin at March 3, 2006 11:47 AM
I think that if you thought about it this long, and know that you are unhappy then you have made a great choice!! Why finish something that you won't be happy with? If you had decided to get a perm and then at the last minute, had a stroke of genius and decided at the last minute not to, you could always back out!! Grad school will be there forever and you can always go back and do something else...you only get to be a new mom once and you need to love every minute of it...
Posted by: andipandi at March 3, 2006 12:29 PM
You do what you gotta do. Enjoy the downtime.
Posted by: Fraulein N at March 3, 2006 02:13 PM
What...you are not going to finish your Masters? What a slacker. I mean...who starts a program and doesn't finish? Hmmmm....who do I know that did that??? Good for you! School sucks...giving birth rules! Go Beth!
Posted by: Naomi at March 3, 2006 09:52 PM
I say it is good for a break, especially with the little one coming. And you know, if your first internet meeting goes well, someone else lives in the KC area.....
Posted by: DrinkJack at March 4, 2006 02:22 PM
Choosing sanity over scholarly couldn't have been easy. Congratulations and YAY for down time before baby birthin'!
Posted by: Susie Sunshine at March 4, 2006 07:45 PM
Hold your head up high and know that you gave it a shot. Besides if you ever decide to go back after a few decades you will still be on par for most NTS grads! I love you very much and God has great plans to use you in His ministry. You always seem to encourage me and the path I have taken so I know that you have a gift to lead people to improve their lives. Never give up being Beth for that is your best quality.
Posted by: Stewbie at March 5, 2006 01:00 AM
Good for you! You've got quite a lot on your plate right now and school is hard enough when you love the program you're in. Hope things go well with your Internet rendezvous!
Posted by: Frema at March 6, 2006 11:35 PM
Good choice, being pregnant is a full time job, and being a mom is an even fuller one.
Posted by: Sheryl at March 9, 2006 08:30 AM
If it was making you unhappy, I say good for you! Plus it will probably be much less stress which is always good for a pregnant woman.
Napping as a full-time job sounds like a great full-time job to me!
Posted by: Jessie at March 2, 2006 02:08 PM